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FET Update: CDs 1-5dp5dt

Hello everyone! I hope everyone is recovering from a very happy and healthy Thanksgiving. You can read about our Thanksgiving antics here. Today, I wanted to give a small update of how I’ve been feeling post FET transfer.



IVF #2 9dp5dt: Cramps and spotting

Hi everyone.

So, I am trying NOT to get excited.  I am also very cautious in sharing this.  I have been cramping off and on for the past two days.  I shared a couple of Instagram posts about it.  They haven't been filling me with a warm and fuzzy.  Tonight, the cramps reached a fever pitch.  I was on the verge of tears because they really hurt!  I told S. that I didn't think this worked and went to the bathroom because it was time to take my Endometrin.  I went to the bathroom first and upon wiping discovered pink blood that only appeared when I wiped.  I immediately thought implantation bleeding as I remembered this vaguely from my son's pregnancy a decade ago.  I used the vaginal insert tool and when I withdrew it after inserting the tablet, there was a scant amount of pink there too.  I wiped again and nothing.  Then, I thought...too late for implantation bleed, right?  Anywho...

I flew down stairs and told S. that this may have just worked.  He wisely told me not to get to excited, but was smiling himself as I explained.  I still have cramps but it is accompanied by back aches.  The cramps now aren't horrible, but they are still there.

I still have NOT tested and I will keep my promise to S. not to.  I hope to not be disappointed on #beta day, but I can't do anything but pray and not stress now.  I won't be sharing this news on IG in a post.  I also won't share it with my two "real-life" #ttc cheerleaders as there will be no point if this isn't good news.

For now, I'm going to enjoy being pregnant unless proven otherwise.  And I am going to continue to joke with S. about baby names just in case.

Have a great night everyone.

-K

IVF #2  9dp5dt: Medications
  • Estradol- 2 pills taken orally (1 AM/1 PM)
  • Endometrin- 1 vaginal insert 3 times a day
IVF #2 9dp5dt:Symptoms
  • Recurring cramps
  • Intense Cramps
  • Slight nausea
  • Pink spotting
IVF #2 9dp5dt: Developments
  • None to report
Next Appointment
  • Beta test day- 23 Dec 2016

IVF 7dp5dt: Announce away


Hi everyone. Nothing major to report on my TWW.  I am still experiencing period like cramps.  They are very dull and can on occasion be strong enough to make me notice, but other than that.  Nothing. I want to test so badly, but I promised S. that I wouldn't.  So I won't.

There.  That being said it's time to change subjects.   I guess I should start this post by saying the opinions listed here are my opinions and no one else’s. Some may agree. Some might not. But let’s respect our right to have our own opinions and differing ones as well. So, a couple of days ago, I logged onto Facebook and saw the most adorable Christmas announcement for a former co-worker of mine. It basically said that she and her husband-to-be had been naughty and were expecting a new arrival. This will be their first child. I immediately thought “how wonderful for them” followed quickly by “what a cute announcement”. (Seriously, the way they did it was seriously adorable). I’m very happy for her as I am for just about everyone when pregnancy announcements are made. But seeing the announcement kind of made me think about people who may view her announcement with pain and misery and contempt. It’s not directed to her. It is the hurt, pain, and resentment of those trying to conceive who are once again reminded that their body did not cooperate with them. I get it. Remember when I shared about the simultaneous pregnancy announcements from two separate sister-in-loves (law). That one was hard. 

I managed to smile through the announcement and even assuage some of their fears after they informed S. and I we were the last in the family to know because everyone ‘knows you guys are trying even if you haven’t said anything’ and they didn’t want to hurt our feelings. I genuinely didn’t want them to feel like they had to hide their joy from us. That would be horrible. A pregnancy should bring joy and I’d hate for anyone to think they couldn’t share that with us. But, admittedly, after they left I went in the shower and sobbed for quite some time. It wasn’t my finest hour.

When I saw the announcement the other day, I got to thinking about others who have recently announced their pregnancy. One friend just gave birth to her rainbow baby. When she shared her announcement, it was preluded with an explanation that she wanted to apologize for those who would feel hurt and that she understood. It continued that she wanted to share the joy of her rainbow without demonstrating “pregnesia”. I felt bad for her. It felt like she was apologizing for celebrating. I’ve thought about all of that in this TWW and I’ve come to a few conclusions.

1. I want my friends and family to feel comfortable announcing their pregnancies in my presence. Most don’t know the struggle journey that S. and I are on. We prefer privacy in that regard for a number of reasons. As exampled above, I’ve never want someone to feel they couldn’t share something so precious and amazing with me. I want to celebrate with them. Yes, there may be a distant sadness somewhere within me, but I assure you, it won’t be visible. This is a time of celebration.

2. If God allows us to become pregnant, S. and I will announce…but later. This journey is something. It has highs, lows, and what-in-the-worlds. I think I would like to get comfortable with the idea that our pregnancy is real and viable. I’ve seen people announce as soon as the line turns pink. AWESOME! I’ve also seen people wait until the last possible moment. GREAT! Whichever works for you, works for me. I think we would like to wait until we are entering or possibly well into the second trimester. I know anything can happen at anytime. I’ve seen it with friends, family, and associates. But I am truly hoping for great things.

3. Announcements should NOT be looked at with scorn or disdain. You can be hurt, but don’t direct it at the woman. A lot of these women who are posting are in fact TTC sisters who have prayed for a chance to announce themselves one day. Just because they don’t share their story doesn’t mean their joy should be diminished because of it.

I know some people still hate announcements and probably always will, but I believe it will all work out if we show each other compassion and not negativity.

Just musing. Talk to you soon.

-K



IVF#2 4dp5t: Cramps...

Hello everyone.

Today is 4 days past 5 day transfer.  I've been doing fairly well with not hitting "Dr. Google" for every twinge and twang, but there are a few differences that I've noticed and am hoping mean great things.

Last night, I attended choir rehearsal in prep for our church's Christmas concert this coming Sunday. I noticed that I felt a small wave of nausea throughout the day, but chucked it up to the progesterone. While standing in the choir loft, I suddenly received a cramp so sharp and sudden that I actually said an audible "ow"!  I didn't feel it again for about forty-five minutes of so and then I felt a smaller one, slightly duller.  I thought that was odd, but didn't want to do symptom spotting.

I guess I had pregnancy on the brain even if I wouldn't admit it because I had some pretty vivid pregnancy dreams last night.  One that I remember well was the line progression on a series of four pregnancy tests.  Each day the line was darker.  I pray that's our truth.

This morning, I was awakened from my sleep with some pretty strong menstrual-like cramps.  Yep, it feels just like AF is around the corner and I was a bit disappointed.  I thought...so much for that.  But I decided not to dwell on it.

I've had those cramps off and on most of the day.  I am really hoping that means good things.  I have backaches and a small amount of nausea as well.  I know from experience that all of these can come from the progesterone.  But I won't lie and say I'm not hopeful.

I'm a bit tired tonight, so I won't hold you guys.  Have a great evening and I will write again soon.

-K

IVF #2  4dp5dt: Medications
  • Estradol- 2 pills taken orally (1 AM/1 PM)
  • Endometrin- 1 vaginal insert 3 times a day
IVF #2 4dp5dt:Symptoms
  • Recurring cramps
  • Slight nausea
IVF #2 4dp5dt: Developments
  • None to report
Next Appointment
  • Beta test day- 23 Dec 2016