Joy and Sorrow



Yesterday was a day, family. My beautiful, amazing, wonderful, God-fearing, God-woman, Proverbs 31 epitomizing, dynamic, special, loving, and treasure of a mother in love (MIL) transitioned into her eternal resting place. What a beautiful thought that is. And how absolutely heartbreaking is the joy and sorrow it brings.

Hits and Misses

In my professional career, I've had some hits and I've had some misses. Today, I got hit with a miss. Something careless that I should have caught, something that 17 years in this business should have prevented from happening. That being said, once bought to my attention, I didn't defer. I didn't excuse. I took full responsibility, made a note of where the failure occurred, and made modifications to the plan to make sure it never happens again.

Afterwards, I sat down really heated at myself. The error was truly careless and I wanted to send emails and follow-ups to make sure “my name” was still intact professionally. Mentors advised against it. So, I did some scripture and Google queries for what I was feeling.


I presently came across 1 Peter 5:6-7- Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. I’m aware these verses were referring to something different entirely, but they helped me today. Transparency. My error was not doing a final review because “I’ve done this thousands of times” and “I have this”. I took a moment and put myself in a loftier place and I believe God allowed me to be humbled to remind me not to think more highly of myself than I should. I receive it and am appreciative of it. I never want to get to such a place that I do less than I should or present a poor representation of a client, an organization, myself, or God.

I’m writing all of this to share that I am certainly growing. There was once a time I’d have made every excuse in the world for why things happened as they did. But I’m in a place of owning my mess, even the professional ones, because I know that God is there with me. If I trust and follow Him, He’ll see me through every time--uncomfortable or not.